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Thursday, August 12, 2004
5:52 PM

Amy: YES! Must can?! *sigh. Have to re-take my Chinese, so my hands're back on them foreign books! Next week!! Saturday?

Fuck Chinese

Screw Hard work

Today was one big emotional thunderstorm for alot of ppl. You knw the way others always decribe the feeling of being the ones indulging in tears after receiving ur O level results, than being the delighted ones? They always go " You don't want to b one of them, crying aft getting ur results, knwing that u've done too well to re-take, but done too badly to go anywhere." It makes u fret and pushes u to work hard.

So i mugged, i swear i did. 1 fucking month of pure chinese, and this's what i reap?! When Seah Xiang Ru gave me my results, it was like a kick in the gut. I was dumbstruck! All i did was stare at the floor. Cldn't cry, cldn't laugh, cldn't show anger. Mel's hand of comfort cldn't b felt. It was not until Xiang Ru's feet came into view and i saw her walking towards me, was i hit with a sudden rush of adrenalin, tears just welled up within a second of a second. Then i felt arms of another around my waist, but all we did was burrow in angst together.

I knw i never passed my Chinese ever since sec 1, but that don't mean i'll be satisfied with a mere pass considering all the sweat i've put into that preposterous subject! This's not what i fucking deserve.

So now the question draws, re-take? Or not? I can't solely rely on my other subjects, it's way too risky, but Chinese takes up alot of time and energy for me and it may cause me to neglect the others.

I need to do a poll. So if u wld, pls.

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